2025

hope you had a merry christmas... and, uh, a good past year as well

i've kept meaning to update this site, i just never got around to it. there have been a lot of reasons, i won't try and get into it all now because otherwise i will miss the chance to have made a single blog post this year.

i found this file when i opened notepadd++ to make this, by the way:

well, we did move to edinburgh! in march. and i've paid all my bills, every month. what more can you ask for?

I've updated my concerts page with all of the acts I've worked at this year! I kept meaning to come back and do a big update (eg yes, I took photos this year) but it'll have to wait until january now. well, my new year's resolution is to get back into things and keep updating + blogging more regularly. a site-wide overhaul is probably around the corner.

lately, i've been feeling a bit down about things i've not achieved this year. for example, i meant to replace my nearly-sanded-down dr martens chelsea boots, and go for a massage. those were both things i wanted to do in the new year of 2025... er, maybe i'll get around to either of them in 2026?

but i *have* achieved things this year, which is my excuse for neglecting my website. sort of. i've definitely had the time, and i coudln't tell you why i've not had the motivation. anyway, this year i have: been a semi-professional clown, worked in a gay bar, moved to edinburgh, seen 30+ shows in the fringe, volunteer stewarded trans rights protests, been an extra in several projects including blood of my blood, and worked as a christmas elf. i've managed to get through the winter without having a 'real' (full time) job and am currently having a merry christmas as i write this up

i've wanted to do this forever, but i think i'm finally going to get a (cheap) camcorder and make vlogs in 2026. not sure exactly the format, but if i do make them, i hope you'll watch them!

do i have any new year's resolutions? nothing specific, just some things i'd like to work on. i need to get better at setting boundaries, and communicating when i'm getting upset. i'd also like to volunteer (probably with shelter), redouble my efforts for palestine, and really improve my fitness.

some stuff i've learnt in 2025... it turns out that paying attention to the world around you is good for you. i've been trying to eat seasonal ingredients, go on walks, 'dress for the season' and such and i've found that it's really made everything feel a lot more real. of course, who's to say how much it's that that made me feel better, vs it was me feeling better that made me do all of that stuff. either way, the thing i'm certain of is that having a living situation that doesn't make every second a living hell is in fact... good.

december always forces me to reflect, which ends up being uncomfortable. i've been feeling stagnant, and as though i've not achieved anything. in the new year, i'm going to try and be better at documenting things i do as i do them so that, hopefully, i won't just forget everything.

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